Looking Back

now its already been the 3rd week for my job training..and next week will be my assessment..then suddenly i realize and think how have i live my life all this year..

well..looking back through past this year i guess the me back then has going through a lot..i have been in my final semester early this year and got so much to bear..and also i didn't have a long holidays like i used to when i'm still studying..looking back these past few years i still don't know whether i'm doing the right things all these while..i guess there are so much to improve and change..after completing my study for almost 2 weeks, i'm going through the practical training for 2 months..this is the first time i had experienced a working life..then going back home for about 3 weeks to finish my report and after that going to Shah Alam to submit it..later, i went back to Kuantan and started working at the shop..i did experienced a lot when i'm working here..i've learned new things and gain new experiences..besides that i've met a lot of people with different kind of attitudes..and later i'm going back to Shah Alam for my Convocation and meeting all my friends back there..i only off for 6 days and go back to Kuantan and continue working..

and then about a month later, i go to KL for job interview and started my job training..and now here i am looking back for the past one year thinking how have i live my life until now..sometimes i feel like the training is tough like i wanna give it up already..but then i realize that i should at least finish off what i've already started..i know that i'm the type of person who give up so easily when i feel like i can't take it..i also did the same thing when it comes to love..i tend to give it up and let it go when i feel like i should..not trying hard to defend or protect that relationship, but sometimes i did feel it is just a waste of time..and also wasting my tears for crying a lot about it..

for this new year, i wish that i can start a new life with a new me..i will do anything that i wanna do, go anywhere that i wanna go and be whatever i wanna be..so until then, ja mata ne~akemashite omedetou..

New Life

its been so long..i dunno what should i write here..guess its already been 2 weeks passed since i attended the job training..the first week was so much fun..surprisingly i didn't feel bored and sleepy in the class..hard to believe but its true..i did learned new things and gain new experiences..besides that, i met lots of new people and living a new life here in KL..everything was going so well but lately i've started missing all those faces i love the most..guess i'm still not get used to it..i still feel homesick even though i've been living in Shah Alam for 5 years..well i guess studying and working are too much different life..

sometimes i do miss my life before i'm going to KL..living in my parents' home with my family for my entire life is what i wished for all these while..but apparently, it didn't came true..i know things doesn't always be the way we wanted them to be..i pray if this is the best for me, then i will make it through..but if it doesn't, then there must be something much better for me out there..rite?..thinking so much about home makes me feel miserable..wanted to be with them so badly makes me feel like wanna give up on this job..should i?..well that's sound so childish and immature..guess i should never give up until i try..akiramenaide~i'm hoping that going through these years will physically changed me to a better person..

however, the good things about being here is i can get over that person completely..guess i don't need them anymore..maybe its because there are so much to concentrate to, the drastic changes in life and get to reunite again with my best friends here..i'm really glad to see them again..

i guess that's all for now..i will try harder to adapt with the new life and become a better person..guess i'm an adult now so there's no need to feel down so bad and cry a lot when going through the tough situation..be stronger..gambarimasu..